But today I will talk about more art-making. Yes, I'm working with skill development in art, which means that I am separating myself from the emotion of whether it's good or bad art—in my case, paintings and sketches—and just doing it.
Today I completed four sketches in 45 minutes. Maybe it's fast; maybe it's slow. And because I'm not studying under the strict tutelage of a regular art teacher, I have no idea. The person who came to me while sketching was a memory of a friend from school named Sally Carpenter. (Yes, I wrote her complete name, because maybe one day she will contact me.) As for drawing realistic images, I've seen few artists who could draw as well as she. I remember watching her draw in the bone structure of a hand, the metatarsals, the folds of the skin, and the realistic fingernails. I particularly liked the square shape of the finger nails. I was impressed then, and still am.
Many wonderful artists have touched my life, as if to encourage me to pursue and persevere in this craft. I remember this, so that if at times my confidence wanes, I think “Yes, I can do this.” Anyone can do this. Half of the lesson is to show up with a sketchpad and a pencil. The other half is to allow your mind (the critical, competitive part) to take a vacation to your favorite spot. In my case, that would be Portoroz, Slovenia... Whenever I ask for peace, I remember a special day with a special friend, walking along the shores of the Adriatic Sea at dusk. And then everything is alright again. My drawings start to flow on to the page, and I don't care if they don't look like the subjects. I'm less “hard” on myself, and this feels good. And with this happier feeling, discipline for art-making will come easier and will help. Dearest wishes to you and yours!
Posted by Susan Rena Rajkumar.