“Don’t write when you’re emotional...” a dear writing teacher told us at college. She is right. Things come out in lop-sided ways. They also present a more dire view, or maybe a stark landscape of the writer’s experience. That said, I’m writing anyway.
Today I’m listening to #thatcelloguy’s release of a track from his upcoming Christmas album O Holy Night. It’s on repeat. Like a mantra, embedding the positive power that flows from his heart (and cello) into mine, half a world away. Yes, I am emotional, and I’m writing. I haven’t been able to write for weeks. So, I welcome this change.
This year has been tough on a lot of people, and I’m not an exception. My spiritual practice keeps me from complaining. Sigh.
A reminder that I had yesterday about enduring the difficult times, was to pull life’s camera lens back to appreciate the full picture. The big view takes on a whole different Universal truth. In this sense, my year has been reduced to a tiny drop in the bucket of evolutionary change.
My husband and I did publish a sci-fi book in February. I received three healings and a couple of helps this year, (although I don’t usually broadcast that...this is more of a mental exercise to bring my spirits up). I did fulfill my 6 week goal of running 20 uninterrupted minutes last week—something that I hadn’t done in 20+ years. I’m mobile now. Grateful for my family and friends—the well-wishers who are happy for me (and us.)
No, I’m not going to write about “what’s wrong.” Because in the Big Picture—it’s already in God’s hands, and positive life changes happen when we focus only on the Divine, the Good, the Holy, on Nature. Hence, the music in my ears. O Holy Night. Grateful for Divine inspiration and spontaneous text messages and phone calls that came in: “… Hope all is well.” “Was just thinking of you...” “It’s ok, susan. Remember things are in divine right order.” “Mucho gusto saludarte Susan.” Please remember to reach out to friends and family (even if you’re too tired) because in life, nothing is static.
I’ve said my piece. It is lopsided and borders on self-pity, but I’m judging right now. I am grateful for my life, and for all of the wonderful souls with whom I share. It couldn’t be any other way, frankly, because we were sent here to learn together. It’s just that some of the lessons I don’t particularly like. Just doing as best as I can. Character-building, yes. I hope that at a ripe-old age I’m a character. Yes, I’d like to look back and laugh. I’ll listen to my own lecture from the video: “Just keep believing that things will get better, and they will.” Sending love, from India.
Posted by Susan Rena Rajkumar. Posted In : The Spiritual Life