I was asked to write about unconscious evil. But why such a subject if we are all interested in Love and Light? Because we unknowingly use it unconsciously. I only speak from my own personal spiritual experience. If you test it out for yourself, you may notice some of the same things that I'm writing about. This is a blog about spiritual healing from my insights. How much Good is good enough?

Merriam-Webster on-line dictionary has a lot to define as evil. a : morally reprehensible : sinful, wicked b : arising from actual or imputed bad character or conduct. a archaic : inferior b : causing discomfort or repulsion : offensive c : disagreeable 3 a : causing harm : pernicious b : marked by misfortune : unlucky

Suppose would happen if you were given the thought that the definition of evil is illness? Would you stomach the word easier? I could consider illness as offensive, disagreeable, or marked by misfortune. But if we don't accept illness in our lives or in our bodies, then by definition, evil also could be considered as sickness. How could someone be allowed to suffer so much in the final throngs of cancer? God wants us to live with dignity, with Joy. I look outside at my role models and “happy gauges” for an answer: The trees, for example, don't have to take in anything but sunlight, water, air, and nutrients from the soil. They thrive beautifully. Shouldn't we do the same?

As humans, if we try to nourish ourselves with negative thoughts, negative words, and any kind of sensory input that does not come from the good, including drugs and alcohol, foul language, and other practices—in most cases—would give us a different out-picturing than a happy image of God, or a tree, right? Likewise, when we consider Good thoughts as spiritual nourishment, then we would like to have more of this.

Of course, most of us at one time consciously lifted a bottle to our lips, but we may not have consciously wanted to drink so much alcohol. How much negativity should we drink? The negative affect of these actions may have been unconscious. Likewise, the impetus to drink or the urge to speak bad words was also unconscious. Where did this come from, the urge to speak bad words, or the impetus to take in anything that isn't healthy?

When I took up the belief three years ago that I only wanted to focus on the Good, this also applied to words, thoughts, and deeds and more. And although I was aware of “unconscious evil” in theory, I did not have any experience with it consciously. For example, if I had read what I am writing today, I would have been astonished that someone could come up with such ideas! My ego was so huge that the Good was almost impenetrable to my psyche, to my body. Fortunately for me...I let the Good in, and started cleansing myself, my body from the evil, both conscious and unconscious. And it changed me.

We are talking about spirituality, where God rules matter. And if God rules matter, then there must be other elements that can affect matter as well, such as negativity, negative thoughts, negative words, actions, and so on. And because there was a time when my ego ruled whether I accepted, I didn't believe that such a thing was possible, that I could be practicing evil on an unconscious level. By accepting any kind of illness is also accepting evil.

What does this mean exactly? It means that sometimes we don't think about the thoughts that we receive. And when we receive thoughts of limitation, thoughts that are typical beliefs passed down from generation to generation such as, “You lose your eyesight after 40.” When we believe in such things, such lies, then our bodies also conform to these beliefs, and we have to wear glasses to read, or we have to suffer; we think that pain is normal. Why do people accept this unconscious evil? And why am I using such a strong word to describe something that many people today follow and believe in? Because it is not truth. I've seen medically verifiable reports that contradict such ancient claims. And further, I wouldn't want to wish this kind of physical out-picturing on any friend, or on any person who doesn't consider herself my friend.

And if I may further things along a bit, I have to repeat this over and over again: Our bodies are built for good health. Our bodies are built for Joy and love. We are not built to succumb to illness or to any maladies. Why, then, have we accepted and practice a “watered down” version of Good, or of quality? When we say yes to something, then we are practicing t h a t, such as saying “yes” to a bigger dress size—we are practicing the belief in weight gain. We are succumbing to it. And then we complain about it, which adds to the problem.

The same applies, when someone says, “Oh, do you want to hear a sad story?” And out of habit, unconsciously, we say “yes” to this person. That was me a few months ago. I accepted to listen to a very sad and morbid story, a story of a petite tragedy. Why did I do this? Why did I say yes if I didn't want to hear something that didn't come from the Good? And while he was recounting the story, I thought of ways that I could “get out of listening” to it. Why did I worry what he would think about me, if he'd take it personally? Those were also unconscious thoughts that I was accepting from...yes, from the other side. But I learned my lesson. I didn't feel so great after that conversation. I noticed it in my body, a not-so-pleasant feeling.

Although it is a habit to say “yes” so that we may be pleasing and polite—we may also practice saying “no” in a pleasing and polite manner. Humans can consciously control what comes to them in thought. Humans can choose n o t to be conscious also.

This is about our willpower. And so when we take in something that isn't so great, it slowly changes our spiritual strength, or changes our path from experiencing the great to accepting less than Great, or less than God. We become weakened. If we continue to do so over a period of time, our destination changes, and ultimately our spiritual goal; although we may not be conscious of it, our health may suffer as well.

How can we improve ourselves spiritually if we are not practicing actively? We are living in times that require wakeful awareness. It's important to be clear about how much Good we want to bring in. And why would we accept anything other than the Good?

In the past, a long time ago, I noticed that I allowed certain “liberties” to use foul language because I was really “cool” then. And “cool people use a few swear words once and a while.” While I was living under this false belief that I was so cool because I said shocking words once and a while, I was not conscious of the negative connotations that came in the same package. Other actions that may accompany profanity are smoking cigarettes, or watching negative media, or reading morbid news headlines, or gossiping and talking behind people's backs, or just plainly acting superficial, without a care for other living beings, surroundings or the environment. This is the practice of unconscious evil. I know that some of you, dear friends, may not agree with me. And this is fine. But after I changed my practices to speaking only good words, I was able to see so many other things that were not in order in my life, such as what you just read above. This insight gave me so much strength, power, more confidence and a spiritual perspective. The reason that I say this, is that all the while that I was thinking I was so “cool,” little by little, I allowed more and more negative influences into my life. And suddenly my body gave out. I became sick, and I accepted it for a while.

Merriam Webster on-line dictionary defines sickness as the following: sick·ness/ˈsiknis/Noun

a : ill health : illness b : a disordered, weakened, or unsound condition 2 : a specific disease 3 : nausea, queasiness. Disordered, weakened, or unsound condition. Yes, the order in my reasoning to allow negativity into my heart was not correct. How shall I say it, friends? I was not following divine order. By allowing this evil, these not very nice things, these watered down images of Good—this sickness—into my heart and belief system, and by allowing emotions that spawn unconscious evil, such as jealousy, anger, sadness, bitterness, and envy—I was thrown off of the path home to God. My huge ego-personality was clueless as to what direction to take when her hostess was found in her bed too sick to stand up for more than 20 minutes at a time. And then I became desperate when western medicines failed me.

The only thing that saved me from unconscious evil were the following: a willingness for positive change; a complete change in my belief system, that illness comes from the kind of life that I lived and the kind of thoughts that I accepted; a spiritual practice that requires humility, guidance, order, and constant care; and a very strong trust and belief that God is the greatest physician. (On the second page of my blog-site I have a place of resources that have given me direct inspiration and guidance.)

The following image is what I use as a gauge when I decide what to take in to my heart, so that I am taking in Good consciously: Imagine the image of a divine infant sleeping peacefully in your arms. All infants are divine. Would you allow anyone to speak harshly around the divine infant in your arms? And would you allow loud, angry noises to disrupt this divine infant's sleep? How about a few swear words? Would you allow the divine infant to witness profanity? Or “off colored” jokes? What about junk food? Would you feed this divine infant food that has a low nutritional value? How much negativity would you allow this divine infant to experience? What kind of a life do you want this infant to have? And spiritual food? How do you nourish your divine infant spiritually? Do you take in spiritual power for your divine infant?

You are this divine infant, and you rest peacefully in God's arms. It is your willpower that will determine whether you expose yourself to Good or evil consciously or unconsciously. Your willpower is also a direct reflection of your spiritual strength. And these are the spiritual lessons we must come by—the results of how much we take in to our hearts. As a good friend says, “What you take in to your heart, is what you have.” And this, plus your actions, will determine your path on this Earth. How much Good is good enough? Why should we settle for “good enough?”

Thankfully I have changed the way I think. I'm so happy that I don't have to look for validation from anyone, much less living as a “cool person” with empty values and a sick body. And I am so happy when I can catch myself in an unconscious lie or action so that I may correct it. It's like a cleanse—a spiritual cleansing that starts in my soul, and trickles down to my body and the 3-D reality around me. Good attracts Good. And I wish this for you as well: a peaceful and happy life filled with good health, good thoughts, good actions, and good deeds. May you spiritually nourish your soul in a humble, honest and truthful way, that God reflects divine power through you and yours.